01/01/2025

Co-creating,
With my Creator,
As I’m stumbling artistically through life.
…

Though life may seem like a lot of sparkle and excitement externally, 2024 peeled me apart pretty good…chopped me up, discarded layers, and boiled me down to basic ingredients. There were great losses and great clearing of space:

Both of my long term stable jobs & income sources;
All of my savings;
Long term, stable residence;
Major operational disruptions to my sustainability networks;
Major structural disruptions to my support network;
Friendships & lives of friends;
Family relationships & lives of family.

It has been unbelievably trying at times & if there were a “Quit” button I could press, I probably would’ve done so on a few occasions. I’m truly only human. But across the year, moving through this space has also provided subtle new growth & room for expansion:

A newfound ability to breathe & operate in the midst of chaos;
A greater understanding of my place in this world;
A clearer picture of the unique & specific cards I am holding in this game of life;
Opportunity to meaningfully explore new paths forward and new roles of leadership;
New & deepening friendships;
Dynamically new & evolving family relations.

I’ve learned I can only play my hand in life. No matter what I’m told to do by others, no matter what I think I’m supposed to do myself as a person, I can only play the cards I’m dealt. This is the one life I have, like it or not. I’m not holding the prettiest hand and many cards are ones folks would prefer to exchange (myself included sometimes), but this is all I have to create a life with. So if I want a life, then this hand, my determined focus and the fortitude of my faith are what I’m working with.

May 2025 show compassion & kindness while being filled with love and abundance as we all move forward.